The only magic left is LOVE.
Everything kind is descending from love and all damage is caused by the lack thereof.
pain -> defensiveness -> anger -> sadness -> love
the root of sadness, anger and defensiveness is some deeper pain. despite the hardships, arguments, misunderstandings and tears, in the end, love prevails.
whenever I overreact or become defensive, I try to stop myself and understand where this reaction is coming from. it mostly never has to do with the other person in that immediate situation but rather, my inability to forgive the past or a deeper hardship I’m still learning to understand.
in my teens I had a lot of walls up and was trusting of few. now, I’m very open and people often tell me that I’m too trusting. the difference is, for a long time I was afraid of getting hurt and now, I know I can only hurt myself. the only control I have is over myself, my actions and reactions.
through opening myself up and granting my trust and love to others, I’ve learned to be comfortable with the possibility and inevitability of getting hurt. I’ll just carry on and keep loving…