hey amber rae

High-res Want to know something that’s really tough and scary to swallow?

Disappointment. Rejection. Abandonment. 

I’m realizing more and more that as I continue to live my truth and design a life around it, I will disappoint and let others down—even if I don’t mean to. 

The more I act on soft whispers and inner wisdom, the greater the risk of rejection and not being loved. 

Eek! 

But want to know the greater risk?

Disappointing myself. Rejecting myself. Abandoning myself. And never having the freedom to know and experience who I really am. 

The journey toward truth can be scary and painful, but it just might be the most important risk we take. 

Day 29 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject
 (at DUMBO)

Want to know something that’s really tough and scary to swallow?

Disappointment. Rejection. Abandonment.

I’m realizing more and more that as I continue to live my truth and design a life around it, I will disappoint and let others down—even if I don’t mean to.

The more I act on soft whispers and inner wisdom, the greater the risk of rejection and not being loved.

Eek!

But want to know the greater risk?

Disappointing myself. Rejecting myself. Abandoning myself. And never having the freedom to know and experience who I really am.

The journey toward truth can be scary and painful, but it just might be the most important risk we take.

Day 29 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject
(at DUMBO)

High-res Did you know that in Ancient Rome the “genius” was the creative force that came to us from afar to speak wisdom?

Elizabeth Gilbert talks about this in her TED Talk about your elusive creative genius, recounting the paralyzingly pressure of writing another book after the massive success of her memoir, “Eat, Pray, Love.”

In it she asks: Are *you* the genius or does your genius *visit you*?

Much like Elizabeth and the Romans, I like to think the latter. Creativity doesn’t come from me, it channels through me.  

@thnkclrly reminded me of this today when he gifted me with this Genius card. It’s a reminder that genius is something that I have, not something that I am. 

What a relief!

Day 28 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject  (at Tribeca Grand Hotel)

Did you know that in Ancient Rome the “genius” was the creative force that came to us from afar to speak wisdom?

Elizabeth Gilbert talks about this in her TED Talk about your elusive creative genius, recounting the paralyzingly pressure of writing another book after the massive success of her memoir, “Eat, Pray, Love.”

In it she asks: Are *you* the genius or does your genius *visit you*?

Much like Elizabeth and the Romans, I like to think the latter. Creativity doesn’t come from me, it channels through me.

@thnkclrly reminded me of this today when he gifted me with this Genius card. It’s a reminder that genius is something that I have, not something that I am.

What a relief!

Day 28 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject (at Tribeca Grand Hotel)

High-res Where does pressure come from?

Society? Your client? Family? Friends? Lovers?

No. 

It comes from you. It’s self-induced and self-inflicted. It can be your greatest ally or biggest enemy. 

The good news?

You have a choice. If the pressure is helping you do great work, embrace it. If it’s holding you back, stomp all over it. Refuse it and let it go. 

You’ll know when it’s time to bring it back in the mix. 

Day 27 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject  (at DUMBO)

Where does pressure come from?

Society? Your client? Family? Friends? Lovers?

No.

It comes from you. It’s self-induced and self-inflicted. It can be your greatest ally or biggest enemy.

The good news?

You have a choice. If the pressure is helping you do great work, embrace it. If it’s holding you back, stomp all over it. Refuse it and let it go.

You’ll know when it’s time to bring it back in the mix.

Day 27 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject (at DUMBO)

High-res So this just happened.
I awoke this morning desirous to give myself permission to get messy and release the inner critic. With an hour and thirty notecards, my task was to write “Get Messy” on each notecard and then bring the cards to life through watercolors.
For the first half, I noticed myself methodical and meticulous, thinking about the strokes and placement of color.
But what happened next surprised me.
I began closing my eyes, feeling the Latin beats playing in the background and dancing with the paintbrush. My entire body began moving and suddenly I forgot I was painting. Suddenly I forgot about getting messy, writing a book, and everything else I want to get done today. Suddenly I reached the space where my body falls into place with the mind and the material. I simply danced with the moment, enjoying the warmth in my chest and the tingling sensation of feeling so creatively turned on.
The song ended and my eyes opened. My entire body was shaking.
"This feeling!" I thought to myself. "This is it! This is why I create!"
It’s the moment in the creative process I yearn for. The moment when the work seduces me and there’s no other place I can imagine being.
Day 26 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject (at DUMBO)

So this just happened.

I awoke this morning desirous to give myself permission to get messy and release the inner critic. With an hour and thirty notecards, my task was to write “Get Messy” on each notecard and then bring the cards to life through watercolors.

For the first half, I noticed myself methodical and meticulous, thinking about the strokes and placement of color.

But what happened next surprised me.

I began closing my eyes, feeling the Latin beats playing in the background and dancing with the paintbrush. My entire body began moving and suddenly I forgot I was painting. Suddenly I forgot about getting messy, writing a book, and everything else I want to get done today. Suddenly I reached the space where my body falls into place with the mind and the material. I simply danced with the moment, enjoying the warmth in my chest and the tingling sensation of feeling so creatively turned on.

The song ended and my eyes opened. My entire body was shaking.

"This feeling!" I thought to myself. "This is it! This is why I create!"

It’s the moment in the creative process I yearn for. The moment when the work seduces me and there’s no other place I can imagine being.

Day 26 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject (at DUMBO)

High-res Everything is material for your craft. The aha moments, the random conversations, the distractions and the inconveniences. Every high, every low, and everywhere in between influences what you have to express and how you express it. Take it all in. 

Day 25 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject  (at DUMBO)

Everything is material for your craft. The aha moments, the random conversations, the distractions and the inconveniences. Every high, every low, and everywhere in between influences what you have to express and how you express it. Take it all in.

Day 25 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject (at DUMBO)

High-res What would your life be like if you only showed up as who you really are? All of you. Without restraint. 
Leave the accomplishments and well-behaved bits at the door. Strip down to the core. Naked will set you free. 

Day 24 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject #showerexperiments (at DUMBO)

What would your life be like if you only showed up as who you really are? All of you. Without restraint.
Leave the accomplishments and well-behaved bits at the door. Strip down to the core. Naked will set you free.

Day 24 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject #showerexperiments (at DUMBO)

High-res Today was a day of creating space. 

Saying “No” and only committing to places where I will expand. Honest and open conversations. Taxes, accounting and financial spreadsheets. Inbox zero and a clean apartment. 

As I worked through what felt heavy, distracting and draining, a wave of lightness came over me. New space emerged. Space to roam free and create from my deepest creative place. Space to get out of my head and into my body. Space to breathe and just be.

S p a c e.

What’s in yours?

Day 23 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject (at DUMBO)

Today was a day of creating space.

Saying “No” and only committing to places where I will expand. Honest and open conversations. Taxes, accounting and financial spreadsheets. Inbox zero and a clean apartment.

As I worked through what felt heavy, distracting and draining, a wave of lightness came over me. New space emerged. Space to roam free and create from my deepest creative place. Space to get out of my head and into my body. Space to breathe and just be.

S p a c e.

What’s in yours?

Day 23 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject (at DUMBO)

High-res Clues are here, there and everywhere, waiting for us to grab them. Waiting for us to take them, run with them, and weave them into our work and world. 

An urge that pulls us in a certain direction. An act of kindness that resonates deeply. A random conversation that leaves us speechless. A book that shows up at the right place and time. An insight that moves an idea forward. 

Clues!

See them. Savor them. Experience them. Create them. 

Happy clue hunting!

Day 21 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject  (at Almondine Bakery)

Clues are here, there and everywhere, waiting for us to grab them. Waiting for us to take them, run with them, and weave them into our work and world.

An urge that pulls us in a certain direction. An act of kindness that resonates deeply. A random conversation that leaves us speechless. A book that shows up at the right place and time. An insight that moves an idea forward.

Clues!

See them. Savor them. Experience them. Create them.

Happy clue hunting!

Day 21 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject (at Almondine Bakery)

High-res Writing this book is like… falling in love. You lock eyes from across the room and feel energetically drawn to that person. You sink into the moment, allowing the here and now to captivate you. Allowing their presence to become one with yours. Your mind occasionally drifts to “what does this mean?” and “where is this going?” A constant reminder to let go and see where it takes you. For the dance itself will be more rewarding than the finale. 

Let love guide you. Day 20 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject  (at DUMBO)

Writing this book is like… falling in love. You lock eyes from across the room and feel energetically drawn to that person. You sink into the moment, allowing the here and now to captivate you. Allowing their presence to become one with yours. Your mind occasionally drifts to “what does this mean?” and “where is this going?” A constant reminder to let go and see where it takes you. For the dance itself will be more rewarding than the finale.

Let love guide you. Day 20 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject (at DUMBO)

High-res "I’m here for you."

Four words that can change everything. 

When someone you love is suffering.

When a dear friend is experiencing heartbreak.

When a colleague loses a big business opportunity. 

When you’re mid-argument with your love.

"I’m here for you."

A compassionate expression that creates connection and understanding, and just might change someone’s day. 

Day 19 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject  (at DUMBO)

"I’m here for you."

Four words that can change everything.

When someone you love is suffering.

When a dear friend is experiencing heartbreak.

When a colleague loses a big business opportunity.

When you’re mid-argument with your love.

"I’m here for you."

A compassionate expression that creates connection and understanding, and just might change someone’s day.

Day 19 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject (at DUMBO)

High-res So apparently I like to dream big. Very big.

Seven days per day. One to three hours per day. First thing. No distractions. My new writing commitment for the next 82 days. 

Want to know the missing piece in this ideal equation?

My other priorities!

Like my fiancé. And our relationship. And morning cuddling. And our weekend play time. And his cousin visiting from out of town. And spontaneous brunch at our place. And… the list goes on.

"Sorry babe, I know we’ve played for almost every Sunday for the last 17 months and your cousin who I’ve never met is in town but… I need to go write for three hours right now."

(Said no one ever.)

So with that, I am revising my writing commitment to five days per week, Monday through Friday. Weekends too as it flows.

And thank goodness for rule number seven: Be open to shifting your plan. 

Day 18 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject  (at DUMBO)

So apparently I like to dream big. Very big.

Seven days per day. One to three hours per day. First thing. No distractions. My new writing commitment for the next 82 days.

Want to know the missing piece in this ideal equation?

My other priorities!

Like my fiancé. And our relationship. And morning cuddling. And our weekend play time. And his cousin visiting from out of town. And spontaneous brunch at our place. And… the list goes on.

"Sorry babe, I know we’ve played for almost every Sunday for the last 17 months and your cousin who I’ve never met is in town but… I need to go write for three hours right now."

(Said no one ever.)

So with that, I am revising my writing commitment to five days per week, Monday through Friday. Weekends too as it flows.

And thank goodness for rule number seven: Be open to shifting your plan.

Day 18 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject (at DUMBO)

High-res Guess what, guys? Today a miracle happened. Okay so maybe it wasn’t quite a miracle, but it definitely felt like one. Today my goddess of love and warrior learned how to dance with each other. 

Whaaaaat?

So! The free-flowing, I-want-to-run-naked-through-an-open-field side played realllly nicely with the get-shit-done, there-is-more-inside-of-you side. 

The pre-planned structure of the day (see yesterday’s post) allowed for complete and utter flow. There was no thinking about what to do or how to do it, which inspired a force of expression and fountain of writing.

Basically, it was the best day ever. 

Basically, structure and process is a creative’s best friend. 

Day 17 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject 
 (at DUMBO)

Guess what, guys? Today a miracle happened. Okay so maybe it wasn’t quite a miracle, but it definitely felt like one. Today my goddess of love and warrior learned how to dance with each other.

Whaaaaat?

So! The free-flowing, I-want-to-run-naked-through-an-open-field side played realllly nicely with the get-shit-done, there-is-more-inside-of-you side.

The pre-planned structure of the day (see yesterday’s post) allowed for complete and utter flow. There was no thinking about what to do or how to do it, which inspired a force of expression and fountain of writing.

Basically, it was the best day ever.

Basically, structure and process is a creative’s best friend.

Day 17 of 100. #the100daybook #the100dayproject
(at DUMBO)

High-res As I enter day 16 of #the100daybook, I’m getting a feel for what does and does not promote my most inspired and productive writing. 

With the aim of making the most of these next 84 days, here’s the creative process and writing ground rules I’m committing to:

1) Write for 1-3 hours, every morning. 
2) Write first thing, before checking email, social media, text messages, etc. (Airplane mode helps.)
3) Make a cup of tea, light a candle, turn on Thievery Corporation or the XX Pandora One station. 
4) When finished writing, pick out the writing concept to be flushed out tomorrow. Write it on a post-it note and put it in plain sight. Allow subconscious thinking, dreams, random conversations and synchronicity to do their end of the work. 
5) Track progress and well-being by answering two questions every day: a) On a scale from 1 (really shitty) to 10 (really amazing), how did today go?, b) why? Reflect on this data every Friday.
6) Share one insight, piece of writing or behind-the-scenes of the creative process on Instagram and Facebook each evening. 
7) Be open to this shifting as more writing is written and data on progress is received. 

#the100dayproject
 (at DUMBO)

As I enter day 16 of #the100daybook, I’m getting a feel for what does and does not promote my most inspired and productive writing.

With the aim of making the most of these next 84 days, here’s the creative process and writing ground rules I’m committing to:

1) Write for 1-3 hours, every morning.
2) Write first thing, before checking email, social media, text messages, etc. (Airplane mode helps.)
3) Make a cup of tea, light a candle, turn on Thievery Corporation or the XX Pandora One station.
4) When finished writing, pick out the writing concept to be flushed out tomorrow. Write it on a post-it note and put it in plain sight. Allow subconscious thinking, dreams, random conversations and synchronicity to do their end of the work.
5) Track progress and well-being by answering two questions every day: a) On a scale from 1 (really shitty) to 10 (really amazing), how did today go?, b) why? Reflect on this data every Friday.
6) Share one insight, piece of writing or behind-the-scenes of the creative process on Instagram and Facebook each evening.
7) Be open to this shifting as more writing is written and data on progress is received.

#the100dayproject
(at DUMBO)